apologies to anyone who ever thought i was cool and reached out to me only to discover i am just a weird little hermit who can’t carry on a conversation to save my life
amy searching for a love that’s unconditional her entire life and failing to find it and then finding danny and how there’s absolutely no way whatever they have could be conditional because danny is just like her so how could he ever demean her for smth she did when he probably did smth just as bad how could he ever feel superior or better when he’s experienced the same loneliness and emptiness that she’s felt. her connection w danny is plain unconditional it’s a wide vast field for her to run around and not worry if she’s ever gonna trip and fall and get bruised and simply exist within it. for once she doesn’t have to worry if someone’s love or care for her would stop if she messes up. for once she can just be.
“Beef” is about so many fucking things, but ultimately it’s about the hardship of being human, the ultimate disappointment and disillusionment that you go through year after year when things don’t go your way and you’re miserable or when everything goes your way and you’re still miserable. When you think you’re living life right but you’re still so fucking unhappy and NOTHING fills the void that spasms inside of you and and and because of this feeling, that life isn’t what you thought it was going to be, the rage pot boils and it boils over and it spills onto everything.
And fuck fuck fuck, it’s about two people who are so disconnected from everyone else in their life because of this feeling that the only person they connect to toxically is each other, because this rage is known, this misery is shared, and even though it’s so fucking destructive, at least it’s not lonely anymore.
i dont know exactly how to articulate this in a way other people havent but everything is too fast now. 24/7 news cycle, online focuses that last for hours instead of months or years, songs written just so ten seconds can go viral. movies and books churned out to meet some nebulous income quota. idk. im motion sick
